The Cryptic Soul

eyes cry when feelings get crushed , it breaks and it echoes a lot but never gets heard  dates back to the time when he was kind , he was humble ,he used to care and his eyes used to get moist in the pain of others , he used to love but the story doesn't ends there , it starts again and this time behind his eyes is a bad man , who is hated , who tells lies , whose dreams and whose love is now just a vengeance , people don't trust him, blame replaced faith and he is now all alone,he is desolated , he doesn't gives a damn to others now , don't mistake him for a kind of person who even gives a shit , and you know why ?, just because he is a capital B A D man .  he is now a loner , he is sad , no juice in his life , no love , no friends who trust, just a bunch of people who approach when they need to get the shit out, he is hated , he is defeated and he discovers a new state of loneliness everyday , he is now obsessed with what he does as he fulfills hi...

eyes cry i laugh , i smile , i never cry , i say i am too strong , i say i can handle anything, i am the master of my emotions but then a sound deep inside echoes ,"who are u kidding?", and i say ,"myself" . I get numb , i don't know why but ya i do, looks like i m all alone and my eyes speak it all and you know what i ferry through this gloomy lane everyday, sometimes i think i should quit but is it the real solution? , i don't know but at least i ll be free from loads of expectations and i ll no longer annoy people whom i care for, whom i live this life for , who are the source of my everyday excitement and happiness. Nobody understood me and i don't expect people to understand me too, they ask, why do you laugh too much? ,and deep inside i say just to hide my tears, pain kills and it kills more when you have no one to share it , my laughter, my mindset this is just a way  to reduce it, just a way to suppress my everyday desolation, it helps me ...

i got a question for you , so do you have anyone in your life whom you want to see happy all the time ?, it might sound cheesy but i want you to lay down all that uncaring attitude for a minute and close your eyes and tell yourself the name of the one person you care for the most or who cared the most for you. if you are unable to find someone i request you kindly close the blog and move on but if you did , we are on a fantastic journey of emotions, so set back relax and here's my story of a silent farewell dedicated to all those who care like mad. there was a relationship between two people , actually they were friends , one used brains in every situation while other supported her heart , there was no way these two persons could ever be friends to the level of intensity they became , someone said to me when people say they don't believe in love, they are heartless, probably they are the people who know the real value of pain , they experienced the pain within so much that ...

farewell , sounds a bit cheesy to you , it may just because we are two strangers now , and you know what i got no problems whatsoever the way you have treated me ,  you got all the rights to be that way because it's your life and it's normal now, you want no interventions from anywhere , you want to enjoy , common baby do it, that's what you are here for. enjoy with all those who eat meals with you , enjoy with all those who make you laugh when you don't even want to smile ;) , enjoy with all those who could possibly make you feel special and really special for a moment and be a queen of moments and a beggar of life. i loved your commitments , i wanna make you my idol and  i want to undergo a course on "how to ignore all what people do for you"! , i mean you are fantastic in that , i don't have words but i ll still write because i got something in store. "i know you have forgiven me", but imagine if someone else would have forgiven you the...

Voice of a person with no friends loneliness is my state and i am its citizen!  Take a deep breath and be absolutely still , close your eyes and do me a favor , REMEMBER someone you wish to dedicate your life to. how great does that feel to have someone around you whom you can catch everytime you feel lonely or you feel as if your life's losing the juice , someone being there always for you , ready to listen to your each and every crap and shit , someone there to tease you always , how does that feel ?,i 'll leave for you to unravel. "I have no friends !, no one to even call or text , everyone's busy when i want them around ! "  someone fired these words into my eardrum and they are still vibrating with the echo of these emotions. just imagine what would that life be like when you actually ferry all the distances alone. you see people enjoying each others company , college people enjoying together , friends having all that crazy cool stuff and you walk the...

'I 'll think if we could be friend's !' i read this and i was broke , the first thing that i did was i kept my mobile aside , took a shallow breath and then my eyes started getting moist , i didn't knew what to say and these few words appeared like tons of weight on my soul. first time ever a message made me cry , i pretended as if i am all strong and i 'll leave , but deep inside a pain of letting someone go was killing me  , all that stuff in my head went on a total blackout and i just said "am i soo bad now ?". i don't know !, may be i am , i screw all those close to me for no damn reasons and may be this is what i deserve, i don't deserve nice people anymore and maybe she is right.   I said ," give me a good byee message , it 'll be easy for me to LEAVE then ", and you cannot imagine , while i was writing that , it looked everything stayed still , i just stopped suddenly when i wrote it then erased it and finally wi...

Dedicated to the female community and specially my friend who is still steamed up with me and has been bananas :-D , so without much delay here it is :  1. when a guy says to you, "don't talk to me", he actually wants you to stay a little longer and understand his problem. 2. boys might flirt around with a lot of girls in the sun but they sincerely think about that one angel when they sit alone.  3. if u think a guy is relaxing, you are wrong , he is thinking about you !  4. it hardly matters how much beautiful other girls are, you 'll remain special. 5. the time a guy starts to like you is the time when he starts to tease you.  6. guys go crazy about a girls smile.  7. if at any time he is rude it doesn't means , he is sick of you, he's tensed and he want's you to understand him.  8. if a guy says "he is crazy about that girl !", believe him , i stamp it , guys don't say this often.  9. if a guys skips his sleep to tal...

just sitting and something blew my mind off , it felt as if someone's fired it all and my head's turned a battlefield , how many times do you feel the same , i mean you just keep thinking about something and sometimes you get so damn absorbed into that lake of your imagination that it appears as if that was happening to you ?, ya and you know what?, the beauty is, it appears to be real and the crazy mofo is that we except it , we believe our inferences to the situations and take our awareness to be the reality. but why the hell am i telling you all that ?,something really crazy , which is happening around is that when you talk to people about loneliness , they pre assume that you have been dumped , so for the sake of clarifying any doubt you might have i wanna tell , sorry i am not .  alright , now just coming back into the lane , it was a nice, breezy evening , so i just went out to enjoy the breeze and so did some other intelligent guys and their girls. i...

I really don't know how to react , why am i feeling this way but i just know one thing that i m not hurt , i m broke , sometimes i feel whether to thank God for making my life so eventful or to cry upon the way my life takes turns , i mean i face this dilemma every day and you know what i m tired of it but i won't give up. As soon as i start spitting my feelings on this editor i really feel good and fantastic and may be the best way to beat a limiting belief , a challenge or a situation that bothers you is to confront it and that's what i am doing while sharing my heart out with the rest of the people spread across the radius of 6371 km. Something really calamitous happened , i had a small fight with my best friend on the issue that i still cannot justify , actually that was not an issue,may be it was but i m still surprised for what i said ,then what she did and then what both of us did so as to counter attack and the situation got worse and wo...

                                 the video and voice say it alllll :(

I came home , i was all down , i seriously didn't knew what the hell happened that i felt so bad within , no cry nothing but a feeling inside that i myself was confused with, a feeling which actually is far beyond words, i laughed with people around but deep inside something is just scratching my soul, i was feeling low and i don't know why ? i sat on the chair, started thinking and ya i got real close and i can name my feeling now , i was feeling insecure for someone. how actually do you feel  , when you love someone, care for him , that person means world to you, you feel your  life's perfect when u are around them ! yes that's a truly amazing experience spending time with someone who loves you and especially u love them , you always wanna be close to them , a minute separation is like years and boy if this sounds cheesy , i bet you haven't experienced love till now. doesn't necessarily needs to be every time an intimate one but you know wha...

The hardest part according to me while writing a blog is to find an apt and interesting opening but you know what, i really don't give a damn to it for this post as this one is damn cool. the smile on your face lets me know that you need me, their's a truth in your eyes , saying you 'll never leave me, the touch of your hand , says u 'll catch me whenever i fall ,                                               you say it best when u say nothing at all :)    how great does this feel when you actually have someone to be with you always , you enjoy their company ,someone who is always there to solve or listen to your problems , someone with whom you can share everything without a second thought, they listen to you , you listen to them and your life looks just the perfect blend of every spice and you know what buddy , man you found a jewel , a jewe...

Mobile is your weapon ! Well i m really happy that you are still with me and we are at the part 5 of the life hacking techniques and you know what ? this time what i have for you is a knowledge of timed interrupts,  now this term might seems a bit heavy to engulf but takes my words this technique is one of the basic and the most effective technique so as to confuse and get the other person thinking about you. now the information i am sharing with you is sensitive and should be used in a positive sense so as to gear up your defenses.  so what's going on ? , here we go .. What is an interrupt ?  now an interrupt is anything done so as to obstruct the flow of any emotion or work. This is just like you get to break someones pattern and this way the person doesn't feels the same again. now if you break someones life pattern at the specific time everyday , it is called timed interrupt. Explanation :  few days ago , me and my friend were sitting and for no surpr...

The Power Of Unavailability   Request : The knowledge which i am sharing with you , please use it as a force for good to deepen the existing relations and not to fool people around you , when feelings get hurt ,they explode silently but crushes from within .  all right so here i am with my 4th edition of life hacking and this time what i have for you is a technique you can use to so as gain the significance level back in someones mind . Analogy : Being in Delhi i don't give a damn to bread ! i went to the college in rural southern India and there i was tired tired of having the food the authorities there provided i needed a change and i wanted bread at least , no chance you can get it in surroundings, we asked the mess coordinator there and he laughed at us :D , we were dying for it and when i came back to delhi that was the first thing i had ! so what can we get from it ? the lesson is : "if u r losing significance in someones eyes or the other p...

Back from my WIE conference in Andhra  , gazing towards the photos and remembering all those cool memories i spent with my friends , i was all into the trans of my masti and you know what my phone rang and an unknown number flashed onto it , with fest round the corner i thought someone again called me for sponsorship or stuff like that , i took the call up , a very low voice said something , it was hardly audible , i asked her again who was calling and then in a very low tone she said “this is me” , olryt so this was my best buddy ,my best friend but one thing did tick me a little bit and that was why was she sounding so low ? , we strated the conversation and she asked me about my trip , but i knew this is not the girl i know , i know my friend as a one who is such a jolly person , enjoys every bit of life and has a great spark in her voice and you know what , it was all missing. She insisted me to tell her about my trip but i wanted to know “what’s wrong ?”, and then , oh ...

The song presented in this piece depicts the journey of the lover when his love goes far from him and what better way of expressing his feelings could be than to sing the pain out loud so here is my band for u presenting "the symphony of love"    enjoy our voice  and this is what happens when she leaves.......

Sitting on net complimenting people and "thanks a lot !", are the common words u get across , and i am sick of answering them in a usual mundane fashion of "u r welcome" or "my pleasure", so  i decided to search a little and let it be different and spicy this time , to stuff our reply with a tinge of newness . take my words your reply wont be that same again ....  Replies to thank you in various languages , enjoy the variety ! Hindi su swagat Spanish de (pronounced as day) nada German Mit Vergnügen (With pleasure) Kein Problem (No problem) Vielen Dank (Many thanks) French  De rien! (der ree-en) Je t'en prie! (used with friends, means that you are truly thankful) Korean Chonmaneyo Urdu Koi Baat Nahin! Japanese  Dou itashimashite i hope this was informative and take my words , your replies will provide u the much needed significance ! guns loaded get ready to fire now :)

Felt devastated as if everything was going against me that day , the wave of extreme frustration overtook me to the shore of anger where lied nothing but another level where i felt so lonely , i felt like i should talk to someone and vomit my heart out , the more i thought about it the more the waves took me into the pit of frustration and so i decided to hamper it and call some of my best buddies. Even in the ocean of friendship my boat sailed without the sailor , i called the first one , he said w8 and i m still waiting , 2 of them said they got a report to form and the fourth didn’t replied even . My frustration started moving in the direction of my buddies and i felt so bad that people who i used to take time out for, do not even have several minutes for me in their schedule , ridiculous ! now was i too mad to make myself free for them or are they too clever to make my use , I don’t know and the more i think on it the more i go into the drain of my memories where lies nothing b...

4 am and my mind is still wandering in the vicinity of what happened yesterday , the more i think , the more my mind slips into the lane where i feel devastated and an extreme wave of self guilt just took me over. i just couldn't resist to talk but i knew she won't. the day before "i called her and invited for a meet , but so stupid i was that i got so caught up in my performance that i didn't had a single thought that someone's waiting :( " , i didn't went to even see her performance in spite of her making me a call . i was into my own world with my group of musicians.  and to add i repeated the same next day  " but that was not intentional " , i said and she cut the phone , i called again and again and finally she talked and i just heard her voice , it was shaky , and she was hurt to the extent that even the silence said a thousand words at that moment , i went into an extreme state of self guilt and this is all i could say.  and what mor...

going back into the deep memory lane where lies nothing but darkness and realities of how much rude people have been , no light of kindness expect the ray of love by family overshadowed by the cruelty of the world outside who treat humans like toolboxes. This is somewhat funny , i was just thinking , how come everyone has so much time to hurt me always ? , i mean i just can't stop myself from laughing that every time i help someone why do i get in return a harsh end , i m sick of it now , i don't feel like helping people , i just feel like i should only mend my own ways let people brick their walls themselves , let them be the drivers of their own destinations and probably they are for them i m just a signboard. Now , sometimes do you feel the same , do you feel like doing good for people sometimes doesn't pays the way we expect it to be and sometimes suddenly their is an outburst where it was least expected . thinking all day about it and listening to some audio's ...