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When She Called !

4 am and my mind is still wandering in the vicinity of what happened yesterday , the more i think , the more my mind slips into the lane where i feel devastated and an extreme wave of self guilt just took me over. i just couldn't resist to talk but i knew she won't.
the day before "i called her and invited for a meet , but so stupid i was that i got so caught up in my performance that i didn't had a single thought that someone's waiting :( ", i didn't went to even see her performance in spite of her making me a call . i was into my own world with my group of musicians. 
and to add i repeated the same next day 
"but that was not intentional ", i said and she cut the phone , i called again and again and finally she talked and i just heard her voice , it was shaky , and she was hurt to the extent that even the silence said a thousand words at that moment , i went into an extreme state of self guilt and this is all i could say. 
and what more i just did hurt her again. 

"why do i always hurt the people i care for most ?", and just as said these words to me my eyes started getting moist , the voice started shaking , i felt like i deserve nothing but just pain because i bring it to others who care for me. 
the next day my best friend called me up and i was as usual right on the top of my work sorting the beats with my group performers and he messaged me
Friend : " Rachit, you know what i really don't know why but i m really feeling depressed and i want you to talk to me, i can share that just with u as its hard to find a friend  like u", 
now what work or friendship, 
Me : "i ll call u within 2 min"
Friend: "i was right you are my true buddy"
Me: -----no reply and i forgot to call him--------
after 2 hrs
Friend: "u might be busy , i thought i always had someone to take a little time for me but no problems i ll sort out my pain myself , i ll rather SMOKE "
and as soon as i read this , :-/

it hardly matters how much u work on yourself , making money is great and earning fame is fantastic , being popular is awesome but when you don't care for people who care for you or whom you care for most , probably everything is ..........

i just couldn't write anymore :'''(
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  1. Anonymous5 February 2012 at 06:37

    Please never hurt the ones you care for , i made this mistake and now i feel like the most lonely person , you got a lesson now hope u wont repeat like i did
    ----anonymous

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  2. Anshum Manchanda5 February 2012 at 13:54

    Upto now i have learnt that mistakes are the best teachers which makes u learn the things you must know in advance... :)
    PS :Dont make it habit :D

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  3. Shivangi Singh19 September 2012 at 19:59

    always love d 1 who loves u ...coz d 1 u may love may nt love u !!

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