The Cryptic Soul

 It feels good, doesn’t it? To do nothing. To lie down, grab a slice of pizza, sip a cold drink, munch on snacks, dim the lights, and lose yourself in a gripping thriller. One episode after another, the story pulls you in, and you’re loving every minute of it. But while you’re enjoying yourself, something is quietly dying. It’s your dreams. They’re gasping for air—thirsty for your action, your consistency, your dedication. Instead, you starve them of the attention they deserve, while feeding your time to things that bring no real value to your life. You live in an illusion of pleasure and an inflated self-image, convincing yourself you’re “doing okay,” when deep down, you know the truth—you’re just avoiding the work. You are enslaved by laziness, paralyzed by comfort, and frozen by habits that slowly poison your life and choke your potential. Pleasure, in itself, is not wrong. In fact, it’s what we all seek. But when pleasure comes at the cost of your dreams, it turns into p...

 psychological closure , i dont know if i ll get it , read somewhere that "disinterest is the closure" , i dont know, for me closure is death, whats this life about, people want cars, house , best looking people but eventually what does anyone get, they get to die.  yes, death is the ultimate destination. you can get a bunglow but eventually it's all going to end. its all going to come to an end one day and thus it doesn't even matter to me now.  should it matter ? please tell me one good that it should, people say they want to travel, they want to explore the world, they want to explore cultures, but what for , what the hell in this world for ?, eventually we are just seeing people surviving in a different way, it might be different in india, different in canada , different somewhere else and how does me seeing that survival style make any difference to whats in store at the destination.  its just like i am going to delhi, but there are many other states in the dest...

 Fear, insecurity, ambition, love, greed, wants, needs....  why do we have it all ?, where does it lead to ?, what are afraid of ?, maybe life itself.   I don't know but i feel a sudden stillness while thinking about it all. Thinking about why all of this even exists, why do even i exist ? I saw people really close die, some were even of my same age,  so if death is a destination and life is a journey, why am i afraid of things around, why am i afraid of not being enough, why do i want more, why do i want to have enough ?, why am i soo lost in the journey whose purpose i am unsure of ?, which brings me to another point, what is the purpose of our existence?  I don't know the purpose, is it to take care of the ones around us, spread happiness, bring more good into this world, i don't know. I don't even know if thats going to even matter once i go away.  from what i feel right now, i prefer stillness over happiness. it's calming, it clears your head, giv...

Beautiful beyond description, a marvel of God's creation, she is a beauty which personified angel. Relationships, as you hear this word, what comes to your mind?, quite subjective for me to judge but whatever does, I got my own outlook on it. As far as I see life, I see everything has to end in a divine state, a state of bliss where we merge our existence into something higher, something that adds meaning to our lives on this planet. Same goes for relationships, I see a relationship as an opportunity to merge our consciousness with our partner, rise above the sexual urge and merge. Its our consciousness that create us, it's that force driving us, its our real identity. A kiss if seen from a sexual lens is of little meaning but if perceived as an act of balancing the energy, an act of transfer of consciousness, becomes a potent stair to balance, a way to heal, an act of sublimation into each other. Is this life of any meaning if it is lived in a state of thirst and want all t...

Any sort of addiction , obsession is just a signal that this energy is trying to talk , that it's there , it's making you feel it's presence, the real you inside is crying to express itself , you just gave it maybe the wrong tool which is destroying you. getting high , experiencing the life , seeking something different all the time, wanting to be a bird flying high, no restrictions, free world, does all this sound familiar, it somewhat describes the major section of people. are we really seeking it all or there is something deep inside that we misunderstood and instead started chasing the leaf forgetting the roots. yes we did , every behavior is triggered by a need , a human need to be understood , to be expressed, to portray that their existence means something, the significance of 'i' is what drives our behavior and in some this expression of the self is the most dominant need , it is this expression that creates the Mozart , the Shakespeare , the Ramanujan...

in the warmth of my bed , the comfort of the blanket around me, breeze gazing through my skin, i felt something, my heart skipped a beat, a magnificent sight possessing an allure that could break a heart without breaking a sweat , an epitome of fascination, a cold breeze in the warm waters ,a girl with a mystical magnetism and i remembered her, so i closed my eyes she hacked my attention, what a seductress she is and as the night advanced this is all i could think, i am the man i am because you are the woman of my life. 

What a flawless beauty she was.. Handpicked from the plantations of the angels, she was gem perfectly brewed Soothing as a cold breeze on a sunny day, a creation so magnificent that it would make the creator smug. an awe-inspiring work of the divine art that no strings can ever encrust. And my words are just an expression to the beautiful stimulating serene beauty that found its personification in you. What a flawless beauty she was.. Rachit Sharma 

Sitting alone , hearing the deafening silence of my thoughts , wanting to break a tear but it just feels like time has stopped , the heart skipped a beat , the nerve stopped to pulse and all i can think is nothing. a wave of turbulence has took over my mind invading the caves of peace i once had and i ask myself , am i so weak to be happy on my own? when will that moment come when i will stop chasing and start leading my life the way i want and the bigger question is , is there a moment like that? . Drowned in the waters of experience that life has thrown me into, all i can say is , real happiness will never come if all you live your life trying to please someone else and having their recognition and praise, people change and so if you thought that you will be happy if they will appreciate then wait you will get a big LOL in life soon. may be it's all about working for yourself and in the process you can make others happy but if u think the other way that while making othe...

The calmness of the cool breeze, the refreshing scent of the petrichor,the excitement of witnessing an arc of prismatic colors appearing in the heavens and the stillness of an effortless peace. this is how i describe love, a feeling that filters all the turbulence and makes you streamline, it solidifies you into the calmness and the serenity of a peaceful companionship. love is not all about kisses and hugs , that is affection , love is when you own someone in a way that you crave for her presence and when she arrives , you get lost in her smile, that smile means world to you, you are ready to fight against the world to keep that smile on her face, you look into her eyes and you tell her that you own her and she is yours. a feeling of possession gushes into your blood and you feel a rush to steal her away , taking her somewhere where you can protect her , hide her and never let her go away from you and give her all the comforts your love deserves. love is not about accepting som...

It feels good to be back guy, it's been a long time i last wrote but that may be because i was really going thru some shit in life and i got serious about it and so here i am guys giving you guys an advice and take a serious note of this "Shit happens but just don't get serious about it incase u do then join the gym". okay lets get straight on this , i used to love a girl and she pretended she loved me , the bonding was way too strong guys and i really was serious about her and probably thats where i went wrong , doesnt it happens with u people , like u get serious about someone and then that person starts to treat u like a dog , fuck yes , same was with me , i loved her , i cared for her and in the end all i got was "i have so many friends i dont need a boyfriend ?", ohh man really , i was burnt till the core guys , i was like i didnt knew how to react , may be since it was the first one .i still remember her smiling face and those traces of sublimated l...

well let me get this straight for you and put it like this , in every relationship that exists there is always a person who has a greater fear of losing the other, all his actions are directed so as to bring the other person into a zone where he/she experiences the joy of a pure relation, his eyes get moist with even a slightest thought of losing his partner and he lives a life of submission in order to be with his life. there are times when there occurs a little friction and take a note that even if someone goes behind you after you have been rude to them , they love you more than they respect themselves, your words might make their eyes heavy but for them your smile is everything. relationships were never meant to be easy and neither hard on the consistent basis , it's always has been a blend of soft and bitter realizations and we keep wandering till we get that one person who means everything to us , without whom you cannot imagine this world and you always know it when you...

29 july 2013  so the fucking day is here  hello , i dunno who all are reading this but this time i am just gonna tell you that its just not a blog , it s something more than that , its something i have been way experiencing , its something which i just can't talk because tears don't allow me to speak and you know i am trying a lot to control to control my emotions but these fucking tears just come out as i remember what i HAD.  isnt it interesting guys , most of us don't have a smile of our own . we find it in other people , we neeed someone to excite us , to make us happy , to make us feel worthy , to make us feel that yes there is someone for us when all that we possess is lost and what when that someone leaves you . take deep breath , yeah it does seem like world turns quite a fuck , u loose the meaning of your life , you donno what step to take next and everything goes scary as you know now you are all alone.  That hand which held you , the arms th...

eyes cry  # the diary of a broken heart ! I too had a heart and someone really beautiful came into my life and stole it and you know what i loved the way she stole my heart , i rejoice that accident , that looked to be the best thing that ever happened to me , i loved her , i loved her like anything , getting someone like her was my dream and you know what god gave me an angel in her form , i wanted nothing from her in return as for me her love was everything , she was my sweet little angel and all i wanted was to adore her all day long. you know what the best thing about her is her smile , when she smiles it looks like flowers showering all over , the surroundings get scented and looks like the nature dancing and rejoicing her cute and sweetest smile, her eyes , look into it and you 'll be lost into the deep ocean of sincerity and love , into the deep waters of purity. talking to her and listening to her sweet voice was the best part , anxiety used to take over in the ab...

Something is missing today and i don't know but i m not that same , lost lost lost somewhere , into someone , may be into her or may be into something else , even music lacks that appeal today and just like the turbulence in the waterfall , i am experiencing the same in my heart , its not still , it wants to go somewhere , it wants to break away and fly. But you know what life is not always how we want it to be , it has its own conditions, its own terms, its own turns , its own grounds and all we can is just sit and stare , wait for something to happen and be a victim of immense anxiety till it takes place and may be this is what happening with me today . I played a song today and within a minute i was lost , lost into the calmness of her smile , lost into the shine of her beauty , lost into her stringed hair , lost into the deepness of her eyes and the purity of her voice. i wish i could just snatch her but you know love is not about possession its more about what other per...

Man, i am not just writing a blog , i am living that moment , ohh that was splendid , the best 7 minutes of my life i 'll say , she looked damn gorgeous , her eyes looked so deep that you 'll just keep drowning and drowning. Those small little things she says , that crispy voice and those words when slip out of her mouth become adorable , she smiles and it looks like flowers showering all around , i dont care how much she weighs because she 'll be a flower to me and i 'll adore that. I don't know how to say but it feels like i am stuck on her and i mean man , i have been through so many phases in life but i wanna say this is the rocking one , just thinking about you and you, my love , darling you rock ! she hasn't said a yes to me but what is more important is that i had a few minutes and she listened to all i had nicely and i adore her for it ! , that means a lot , a lot to me ! , you know her blush , ohh man , that is simply killing , take a deep breath,...

when a true Electronics engineer Proposed a girl :  1. you are magnetic and i would love to be an iron bar . 2. I am a transistor looking for biasing , will you bias me . 3. I used to wander a lot but dammit you polarized me . 4. I would not like to be a rusted iron , so will you galvanize me. 5. I am kinda paramagnetic , looking for some strong field. and when he got rejected he said : I turned an inductance gyrator but you never told me that fucking mental midgets like you always relied on back emf . run away from here at supersonic speeds but i ll never be able to erase you as my heart is not re writable.  share if u like , i ll add more soon :)

eyes cry Light music , faint memories and a smile u just cannot get your head off. you got a lot of work to do but you do nothing , music hacks your mind and you keep drowning and drowning into those memories , into that beautiful giggle, that beautiful sight , you breathe deeply and deeply and deeply and all you do is remember her . your mind swivels in the chair of her memories and yes man she becomes the reason for your subtle smiles , your conversations with her are your secrets you read them again and again all day long. Angel is all what you call her , you see her pass by and all you want is to sit by her side , to share some moments and preserve them , preserve them for lifetime, when she is with you , you dont even give a damn to what world says as your world shrinks to her , you look for every single way you can just get in contact with her and make her speak to you , you listen to that crispy voice and it crawls onto your heart all day long, you look at her , actuall...

eyes cry I don't know why the heck am i writing this man , i mean it just came to me and compelled me to write , i m stuck on it and i don't see a way out but to write it , may be if everyone calls it a bullshit i seriously got no problems because i m goddamn stuck on this way and here goes the story  : moist eyes ,sitting in a corner ,dark lights and a heavy heart , he was all alone in the crowd , he had some friends and a void , a void he has learnt to live with , a void which kinda kills him but he got be easy on that , sometimes in life you have to fake things because you don't want to get hurt more or you wanna find an escape , you know sometimes in life you choose a different lane not because you cannot ferry along the other one but because you don't wanna get hurt more, you change your attitude so as to change the way you feel , i don't give a damn man, becomes your favorite one liner. and you know what he's got a story to...

eyes cry # diary of a person of sacrifice i don't know why the heck am i writing this blog , i just felt something inside and i took my laptop and started to pen this down , eyes are moist and throat is strained but the feelings are flowing and may be i just want to stop them down , i dont want my feelings to take me over and so i am writing this down and this time what i have in mind is something which has now become an integral part of my life and the second name for me , i think i am that way or  may be i am wrong as i have always been . sometimes i think is life so unfair to me or it's potentially more fair to others ?, someone give me an answer please, i m kinda now tired of spitting through my eyes every time or it may be that what all i am doing is what god has sent me to do . Sacrifice, a feeling that is so sacred , so divine and so pure , a mother sacrifices for her child , a soilder for his nation , a person for his love and a true friend for his buddy . life ...

To,  Mr. Hater  hater's ground backstabbing lane, Subject : NOT needed you ll read the full letter once you see it's written by me.  Respected S for sucker,  Chill out dude , i know i m cooler than , i can do the things you just can't even imagine to , you wanna bring me down , you wanna hurt me ha , try it , come on man , lets play , mess with me and i m gona clear this shit right away okay , your sucking smile isn't of any use , i give no damn to it and you may never know how much i have struggled , why did i acted that way , you never know what the fuck life threw at me and now when i am at top , you wanna bring me down, you want me to slip ,common kick off , just get the shit out of here.  i knew you 'll always hated me , i knew all you ever wanted was to bring me down and you know what i wanna tell you something , baby just dream , keep dreaming , even my shit is more valuable than you, you piece of unused flesh , u degenerate , you sm...