Thinking about ..

Something is missing today and i don't know but i m not that same , lost lost lost somewhere , into someone , may be into her or may be into something else , even music lacks that appeal today and just like the turbulence in the waterfall , i am experiencing the same in my heart , its not still , it wants to go somewhere , it wants to break away and fly.

But you know what life is not always how we want it to be , it has its own conditions, its own terms, its own turns , its own grounds and all we can is just sit and stare , wait for something to happen and be a victim of immense anxiety till it takes place and may be this is what happening with me today .
I played a song today and within a minute i was lost , lost into the calmness of her smile , lost into the shine of her beauty , lost into her stringed hair , lost into the deepness of her eyes and the purity of her voice.
i wish i could just snatch her but you know love is not about possession its more about what other person wants keeping your desires aside. love is not that straight lane man , its a rocky terrain and you are lucky if someone is there for you , is with you , is there to hold your hand , is there to balance you when you fall as some just ferry all alone.
and irrespective of what you feel sometime you have to see where you belong and the truth is you cannot have her, yes you cannot, poverty poverty and poverty of love , no matter how much you think man , sometimes the other person is too good for you to have and handle , no matter if you need her more than sugar , or your love blows your mind , life's crude reality assures you one thing ,"celebrate your 14 Feb alone !, its not the time yet ".

# diary of a boy in love !