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No Replies:cruel U !

Anxiety all over and wanting a little peace within , you want no one to be in touch with you and all you want is to live by your own self . not because you are tired of being with people but because now you are afraid of being disappointed again. It's a kind of a numb feeling isn't it?, i mean at one stage you 'll say "i want to live all by myself", and then hour's or minutes later you 'll realize, no that's not me ! a constant dilemma surrounds us , a picture so blur and hazy that we ourselves are not able to figure out where is it heading.

so yesterday i was just sitting waiting for a reply to come, couple of days passed by ( LOL ) i wish i had one , but no worries actually it didn't , and i really felt bad , i mean i told someone my problem and  no replies back and i was, "how cruel man !, height ", it was like a certain blend of emotions where i was having a smile on my face for the first time when someone didn't replied and i was tasting a little anger too, may be i was trying not to make this a lot significant or may be i have now gone absolutely habitual to no replies , seriously , it's like "immunity granted man !". but whatever i say , i mean being human , leave me , how will you feel , when you are totally struck on a problem and you share it with someone and that person doesn't even reply back , i don't say that the person intentionally did this , he might be upset too or something more critical might be there , may be they got caught up into their work so hard that they had no time and they forgot to reply , possibilities are many and you need to look at them if you wish to save the relation.

and then big bang, next thing that struck my mind was  why did i feel bad ?, i was surprised at myself , i usually don't feel that bad when someone doesn't reply but this time i was struck with a wave of extreme rejection and i don't know why , i tried to develop my hypothesis and may be i came up with one , i don't know how much right this is , but it looked fine to me," people who we feel are close to us will always hurt us because may be we value their each and every action closely compared to the other people around us, other people also act the same way as they do sometimes but we only value the actions of our buddies as this is what matters to us, when they do something against our expectations , we feel like rejected and feel like we are losing someone ", and the greatest fear of human race is :
"the loss of a loved one !". 

so kindly be nice and kind to all those you value as people are not easy to find , guard your relations you never know when it all turns around.

and sometimes i doubt did i sent the message or deleted it (lmao)? 

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