The Cryptic Soul

Anxiety all over and wanting a little peace within , you want no one to be in touch with you and all you want is to live by your own self . not because you are tired of being with people but because now you are afraid of being disappointed again. It's a kind of a numb feeling isn't it?, i mean at one stage you 'll say "i want to live all by myself", and then hour's or minutes later you 'll realize, no that's not me ! a constant dilemma surrounds us , a picture so blur and hazy that we ourselves are not able to figure out where is it heading. so yesterday i was just sitting waiting for a reply to come, couple of days passed by ( LOL ) i wish i had one , but no worries actually it didn't , and i really felt bad , i mean i told someone my problem and  no replies back and i was,  "how cruel man !, height ", it was like a certain blend of emotions where i was having a smile on my face for the first time when someone didn't replied a

Life is meaningless,i can't live without you, i 'll kill myself or i 'll kill your lover if i can't have you , i mean it and i am crazy about love with you .  nice ancient drama , isn't it ?  lots of people around to talk to , most friends amalgamated and the one's who are not are actually in the process of finding mercury. i was sitting and one thing struck my mind , actually it didn't struck my mind , it was a constructed thought with pattern of extreme focus and attention and you know why, just because people around me keep spitting some real bulky , intense words and one of them being "Relationshippppsss".  all things blossom when it's time to courtship , caterpillars turn to butterflies. buds turn to fruits and flowers and you turn to an idiot. I don't know why but i have a different stand on it than my peers do , according to me you know what relationship is ? , it's a pre-framing of a frustrated mind , with a guy bein