The Cryptic Soul

29 july 2013  so the fucking day is here  hello , i dunno who all are reading this but this time i am just gonna tell you that its just not a blog , it s something more than that , its something i have been way experiencing , its something which i just can't talk because tears don't allow me to speak and you know i am trying a lot to control to control my emotions but these fucking tears just come out as i remember what i HAD.  isnt it interesting guys , most of us don't have a smile of our own . we find it in other people , we neeed someone to excite us , to make us happy , to make us feel worthy , to make us feel that yes there is someone for us when all that we possess is lost and what when that someone leaves you . take deep breath , yeah it does seem like world turns quite a fuck , u loose the meaning of your life , you donno what step to take next and everything goes scary as you know now you are all alone.  That hand which held you , the arms that wrap

eyes cry  # the diary of a broken heart ! I too had a heart and someone really beautiful came into my life and stole it and you know what i loved the way she stole my heart , i rejoice that accident , that looked to be the best thing that ever happened to me , i loved her , i loved her like anything , getting someone like her was my dream and you know what god gave me an angel in her form , i wanted nothing from her in return as for me her love was everything , she was my sweet little angel and all i wanted was to adore her all day long. you know what the best thing about her is her smile , when she smiles it looks like flowers showering all over , the surroundings get scented and looks like the nature dancing and rejoicing her cute and sweetest smile, her eyes , look into it and you 'll be lost into the deep ocean of sincerity and love , into the deep waters of purity. talking to her and listening to her sweet voice was the best part , anxiety used to take over in the ab

Something is missing today and i don't know but i m not that same , lost lost lost somewhere , into someone , may be into her or may be into something else , even music lacks that appeal today and just like the turbulence in the waterfall , i am experiencing the same in my heart , its not still , it wants to go somewhere , it wants to break away and fly. But you know what life is not always how we want it to be , it has its own conditions, its own terms, its own turns , its own grounds and all we can is just sit and stare , wait for something to happen and be a victim of immense anxiety till it takes place and may be this is what happening with me today . I played a song today and within a minute i was lost , lost into the calmness of her smile , lost into the shine of her beauty , lost into her stringed hair , lost into the deepness of her eyes and the purity of her voice. i wish i could just snatch her but you know love is not about possession its more about what other per

Man, i am not just writing a blog , i am living that moment , ohh that was splendid , the best 7 minutes of my life i 'll say , she looked damn gorgeous , her eyes looked so deep that you 'll just keep drowning and drowning. Those small little things she says , that crispy voice and those words when slip out of her mouth become adorable , she smiles and it looks like flowers showering all around , i dont care how much she weighs because she 'll be a flower to me and i 'll adore that. I don't know how to say but it feels like i am stuck on her and i mean man , i have been through so many phases in life but i wanna say this is the rocking one , just thinking about you and you, my love , darling you rock ! she hasn't said a yes to me but what is more important is that i had a few minutes and she listened to all i had nicely and i adore her for it ! , that means a lot , a lot to me ! , you know her blush , ohh man , that is simply killing , take a deep breath,