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Love Dissects! is'nt it ?


It was 11:30 the class was going on and i was one among the various listeners but my senses were wandering in the vicinities of the girl i saw  , i wanted to message her and talk to her , i felt like leaving everything for and just be in touch , and i would find time to message her no matter how much work i had , i took up the phone to chk if i received a reply back , i just pick the phone up to check whether i had missed a call from her, every new number seems to be her new contact but what my fate was i didn’t received a single message nor a call. I felt like life was cruel to me and just when i was breaking within and trying to forget i got a call back and a message too and all that anger flushed down the drain and i was back into the anticipation of my future with her.
 But again this repeated and i was again down and then i got to realise something ,” this is how just 1 person can become so important to u , and i was in love K” ,  and i knew she didn’t  , i tried to help her every possible way i could so as to show her that i care for u , just like river flows all that kept flowing and i too kept breaking every night and day in her dreams ,
Then one day i said to myself “Not Again”. This was making me a hell , i could not concentrate on my work , everyone seemed to be just selfish , i was down on the zeal i had for life before , i kept ignoring the friends who helped me in every walk who motivated me and then i said to myself , is the person who just does not cares for me worth for such a change that i brought to my life, am i so much emotional dependent on the person that they moulded my way of living life and believing people and i was surprised to get a “YES” from myself.
Those days looked like i lost a precious stone and my life has no meaning now, i wanted someone to love me and care for me , and then i realised that love can really move you when u place it inside your heart L .
So it was night , time to go to bed and as this time i was determined to change how i felt , i wanted myself back and thus i started asking myself
what is more important to me ??? my career or love
And the answer i got was love ....... oh gosh i was getting more into it the more i tried to get out and the whole night i could not sleep just because i thought , if i don’t come out ,i m gone.

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