The Cryptic Soul

eyes cry Light music , faint memories and a smile u just cannot get your head off. you got a lot of work to do but you do nothing , music hacks your mind and you keep drowning and drowning into those memories , into that beautiful giggle, that beautiful sight , you breathe deeply and deeply and deeply and all you do is remember her . your mind swivels in the chair of her memories and yes man she becomes the reason for your subtle smiles , your conversations with her are your secrets you read them again and again all day long. Angel is all what you call her , you see her pass by and all you want is to sit by her side , to share some moments and preserve them , preserve them for lifetime, when she is with you , you dont even give a damn to what world says as your world shrinks to her , you look for every single way you can just get in contact with her and make her speak to you , you listen to that crispy voice and it crawls onto your heart all day long, you look at her , actuall...

eyes cry I don't know why the heck am i writing this man , i mean it just came to me and compelled me to write , i m stuck on it and i don't see a way out but to write it , may be if everyone calls it a bullshit i seriously got no problems because i m goddamn stuck on this way and here goes the story  : moist eyes ,sitting in a corner ,dark lights and a heavy heart , he was all alone in the crowd , he had some friends and a void , a void he has learnt to live with , a void which kinda kills him but he got be easy on that , sometimes in life you have to fake things because you don't want to get hurt more or you wanna find an escape , you know sometimes in life you choose a different lane not because you cannot ferry along the other one but because you don't wanna get hurt more, you change your attitude so as to change the way you feel , i don't give a damn man, becomes your favorite one liner. and you know what he's got a story to...

eyes cry # diary of a person of sacrifice i don't know why the heck am i writing this blog , i just felt something inside and i took my laptop and started to pen this down , eyes are moist and throat is strained but the feelings are flowing and may be i just want to stop them down , i dont want my feelings to take me over and so i am writing this down and this time what i have in mind is something which has now become an integral part of my life and the second name for me , i think i am that way or  may be i am wrong as i have always been . sometimes i think is life so unfair to me or it's potentially more fair to others ?, someone give me an answer please, i m kinda now tired of spitting through my eyes every time or it may be that what all i am doing is what god has sent me to do . Sacrifice, a feeling that is so sacred , so divine and so pure , a mother sacrifices for her child , a soilder for his nation , a person for his love and a true friend for his buddy . life ...

To,  Mr. Hater  hater's ground backstabbing lane, Subject : NOT needed you ll read the full letter once you see it's written by me.  Respected S for sucker,  Chill out dude , i know i m cooler than , i can do the things you just can't even imagine to , you wanna bring me down , you wanna hurt me ha , try it , come on man , lets play , mess with me and i m gona clear this shit right away okay , your sucking smile isn't of any use , i give no damn to it and you may never know how much i have struggled , why did i acted that way , you never know what the fuck life threw at me and now when i am at top , you wanna bring me down, you want me to slip ,common kick off , just get the shit out of here.  i knew you 'll always hated me , i knew all you ever wanted was to bring me down and you know what i wanna tell you something , baby just dream , keep dreaming , even my shit is more valuable than you, you piece of unused flesh , u degenerate , you sm...

eyes cry when feelings get crushed , it breaks and it echoes a lot but never gets heard  dates back to the time when he was kind , he was humble ,he used to care and his eyes used to get moist in the pain of others , he used to love but the story doesn't ends there , it starts again and this time behind his eyes is a bad man , who is hated , who tells lies , whose dreams and whose love is now just a vengeance , people don't trust him, blame replaced faith and he is now all alone,he is desolated , he doesn't gives a damn to others now , don't mistake him for a kind of person who even gives a shit , and you know why ?, just because he is a capital B A D man .  he is now a loner , he is sad , no juice in his life , no love , no friends who trust, just a bunch of people who approach when they need to get the shit out, he is hated , he is defeated and he discovers a new state of loneliness everyday , he is now obsessed with what he does as he fulfills hi...

eyes cry Dammit .... One person , ya just one , u cannot even imagine your life without them , tears replace their void , heart beats in the rhythm of their name , u feel really really excited  when they are with you and you know what, life looks a gloomy lane without them , you keep waiting and waiting and waiting , eyes never dry , heart never beats the same way and whole world haunts , heart weeps and you company along , silence goes deafening and you just cannot bear it more , you want them to come back, you plead you beg you cry but prayers never got heard and the one kept crying and slipped into the cold lane of desolation  where lies quiet desperation , where lies no love but endless wait ,a wait that kills and the silence that deafens. if this sounds cheesy, kindly skip the part below man, but if you feel a connection , if you too had or have(u lucky) someone you wanna gift your life then you are going to unlock so...

eyes cry i laugh , i smile , i never cry , i say i am too strong , i say i can handle anything, i am the master of my emotions but then a sound deep inside echoes ,"who are u kidding?", and i say ,"myself" . I get numb , i don't know why but ya i do, looks like i m all alone and my eyes speak it all and you know what i ferry through this gloomy lane everyday, sometimes i think i should quit but is it the real solution? , i don't know but at least i ll be free from loads of expectations and i ll no longer annoy people whom i care for, whom i live this life for , who are the source of my everyday excitement and happiness. Nobody understood me and i don't expect people to understand me too, they ask, why do you laugh too much? ,and deep inside i say just to hide my tears, pain kills and it kills more when you have no one to share it , my laughter, my mindset this is just a way  to reduce it, just a way to suppress my everyday desolation, it helps me ...